Thursday, July 31, 2014

Blisters, 4 Shots, and 4 Boys!

Today has been quite a day! It is 9:52pm and I feel like I have ran a 15 hour marathon. I am exhausted! Part of it may be that my body just randomly decided to wake up at 2am and not go back to sleep! I finally got up, did some quite time, and took a shower. Around 5:15, my body decided it was tired again and went back to sleep only to be woke up by the alarm clock at 6!! NICE, just how I like mornings!
I know you are wondering why in the world I got up at 6. Well, if you have been around for some time then you have heard me joke about Hudson getting sick every two weeks! People this is not a joke! At first it was but now it is nothing but the truth! I just don't understand what his immune system is up to. He goes two weeks with everything going ok and then boom, his body decides it needs to do something! Anyway, he just had Bronchitis around 2-3 weeks ago. It was horrible and really gave us a scare. He got better and life was moving forward. During bath time on Tuesday night I notice a cluster of blisters on his leg! I am instantly thinking, "what in the world is this?"  Just two hours prior he had nothing on his leg and now he randomly has blisters popping up! and when I went to examine them, he went CRAZY! Screaming and crying. I finally got him calmed down and decided to put some "cures/heals anything cream" - Neosporin! (when I was little we used this for everything and it did make it better) 
Fast forward to Wednesday around 7pm. The whole entire day no other spots had come up. He had not ran fever nothing. Well, bath time again and guess what?? New blisters! I could not believe this and in my mind I had already self diagnosed! hand foot and mouth! I had even looked online at blisters. I know this is wrong but I couldn't help myself! I decided I would take him to the doctor at 8am the next morning!
This morning we leave out super early for the doctor, 6:45 to be exact! Jagger, Hudson, Grandma Betty and myself! I put both the boys in the car in pjs and off we go. We get to the doctor right at 8, get back by 8:15 and are out of the doctors office at 8:30!!! He doesn't have chicken pox, hand foot and mouth, nothing contagious! Just an allergic reaction to some kind of bug bite!
After the doctor we head to Target to get a prescription filled and look for some toy Jagger "had" to have! 1 hour later we leave Target. Jagger is quite the shopper with Grandma Betty! We left Target and went to Dillards. Jagger decided on the way to Dillards his feet hurt and needed a new pair of shoes. It took him 30 minutes to pick out a pair of shoes! He is worse than a girl....Hudson and I ended up waiting in the car on him and Grandma! Two intense shopping sessions and it was time for some food! Jagger picked Red Lobster. Definitely not the top of my list but whatever makes this boy happy, because in the back of my mind I know something not good is coming and he has no clue! I am a horrible mean mom...I did not tell him that when we got back to Kennett he was going to have to get shots for school! I just figured it would be easier to not tell him than him worry all day long!
We finish lunch and head back to Kennett. He has no clue and I am starting to feel sick. I feel so bad that we are having to do this....We got behind on his shots while we were in St. Louis with Hudson. We pull up to the Health Department and he starts asking me why we are there. I tell him that we have to go in to talk to them about school. Once we get inside I feel like I need to tell him. Instantly he starts crying. He is bawling, reaching for the door. He is telling me he doesn't want to go to Kindergarten. It was horrible and he hadn't even gotten the shots! We get back there and the crying has gotten louder. I am trying to keep myself stable because I am not good with shots! I have been known to have episodes myself! She gets ready to do the shots and we have to hold his arms. His legs go flying and flip flops are flying everywhere. What took 1 minute seemed like it took 15. After she put the band aids on he was crying so hard he started to throw up! - maybe a little dramatic??? but he did have 4 shots! I would have been out on the floor....We finally get him calmed down enough to leave...He was not a happy camper with me. I got to the car and cried. I guess it just all built up and I felt so bad for not telling him and those eyes when I told him...it broke my heart! I hate to see my babies cry in pain!
We get home and its time for the Snipes boys to come over! Jensen and Jess come over to stay most of the night while Eric and Kristy went to Memphis! These boys are awesome and we love them like our own! Jagger and Hudson light up when we even mention the Snipes! So my night has been full of lots of screaming, running, play guns going off, laughing, wrestling, doors being slammed, and Hudson tagging behind the whole time! It has been a zoo but I wouldn't have it any other way!
This day has for sure left me worn out but I as I sit here, I thank God for Hudson's health. I thank God for Jagger and all his sweet self even at times if he is a little dramatic! I thank God for the friends we have. We are at a time in our lives that our friends are like family. They mean so much to us and I wouldn't change it for the world! I feel so blessed!
Sorry this was so long, I guess I had a lot to say!
Hope everyone had a blessed night!

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

What I have learned from my kids...

I love the fact that I am constantly learning from my kids. At times I think God gave us kids so they can teach us instead of the vice versa. I am going to share the things I have learned with my kids(some are these things you have seen in your children, grandchildren, nieces/nephews, and friends!

*  Sleeping with kids, I am pretty sure, would be comparable to a UFC fight! Early this morning, all 4 of us ended up in our QUEEN size bed. All of my boys were snoring and Matthew was hanging on the edge of the bed with a leg, Hudson was on top of my head. Yes on top of my head. Jagger was sprawled out taking up the whole middle of the bed! This is why I like my kids in there own bed!! Momma gets some sleep (and poor daddy!)

*The love for my kids is something that no words can explain! I often think how in the world can you love something so much! This is exactly how God feels about us except with more love! WOW!

*Trust- the trust my kids have in their eyes is amazing! I never want that to leave them..They are so sweet and innocent. They trust the world right now..

*Poop and snot make me gag and want to throw up! I just can't handle it but for some reason, my kids can have poop coming out of their clothes and I don't mind at all! I also can't count how many times I have had to wipe snot with my hand because we have nothing else to use! I know its gross but with your kids its different!

*I absolutely love how I can get on to Jagger and instead of holding a grudge against me..guess what? 5 minutes later he loves me! He wants to kiss me and sit in my lap!  Why can't adults do this when we get upset with someone? Instead of getting mad at them forgive and forget! Maybe not give them a kiss but you get the picture!

*The faith of Jagger is something I strive to have.....When he prays he knows beyond a shadow of a doubt God is going to take care of it! He has no doubts....He has no worries! Just faith!

*Everything is fun! I love how kids can have fun with a box! Why do adults have to complicate everything, when things can just be simple! Instead of dreading situations, just have fun! You never know what may come of it!

*Kids don't care what you look like or what we have! This is one of my favorites! I love that Jagger and Hudson love me for me. They love me when I haven't washed my hair or put on makeup for several days. They love me when my pants are so tight that I can't hardly breathe. They love me when our house is a mess or clean. They don't care that I buy our stuff from Wal-Mart, Target, second hand shop or Pier 1...They don't care! Oh, I wish Adults could be more like children!

*Kids will eat when they get hungry...the more I force the less they eat. Just leave them alone and eventually they will eat and will probably eat more than they would if I was forcing!!

*Grunting and Holding out your arms will get you anything you want! Thank you Hudson!

*Kids/Babies are stronger than we give them credit for! Hudson has been through it and that boy is tougher than his momma!


Well...speaking of Hudson is grunting/crying and holding his arms up for me! Guess I need to figure out what he wants.....maybe attention!
Hope everyone has a blessed day!
Lots of love..

Monday, July 28, 2014

Favorites..

I have always enjoyed trying new beauty products, but I have my favorites! The favorites that you can't go without. They are  part of my daily routine or the somewhat routine that I have!

 Hair: My hair is naturally curly! I either wear it curly or straighten it! I don't get too fancy with my hair. I am not good at doing cute hairstyles...and I really wish I could do the messy bun/braid but I can't so I will live with what I can do!




For curly hair I love all the John Frieda products! They are awesome!!!

No I do not wash my hair everyday! This stuff really helps a momma out!
Body: I love body washes and lotions! I am a sucker for it! Once a year I have to clean out the bathroom cabinets because I have been known to have TOO much body stuff! I didn't put shampoo on here because I am cheap when it comes to shampoo. I don't buy special shampoo for my hair! I probably should but I would rather spend money on something else!
This stuff is awesome! You don't have to use lotion after..it makes your skin feel so good!

When I do use lotion I have been using what I have for the kids! This stuff is AMAZING!!! the smell is so good! I normally use Olay lotion but I ran out and started using this!

my mom has used this perfume for YEARS!! I always would make fun of her for not using anything different and then guess what? I started using it and have been since high school!

the best!!!
Face: I use very limited stuff on my face! I hardly ever wash my face..I know weird huh? but every night I do use face wipes! I have a clarisonic that I love to use on my face! It makes my face feel so good!
Eye liner....this is the most amazing eye liner I have ever used..pricey but worth it!! I love all urban decay products!

I have never been a lip person....Im telling you I am plain jane! but this stuff is great! Thank you sister in law for the recommendation! It has a little bit of color not too much and feels great!

been using since high school if that tells you anything!

Good Ol Noxzema! I have tried all kinds of face wash and creams but  I always go back to this...$3 bottle and I love the way it feels!

I have not learned how to use this but the 3 colors I do use I have like A LOT!!!
So what are your favorites??
Hope everyone has a blessed day!
Lots of love..

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Confession..

I have a confession. I need to vent. I need to get things off my chest. I feel burdened. I am not ok. The last 6 months have not been the best for me. I am not sure what is wrong with me or what has happened to me. I think it all started with winter when everyone was getting sick constantly. It put me in a "spot" and I can't seem to get out of it! I don't like the person I have become. I have not been ME! I have put my faith and other relationships on the back burners. I have no desire to do things.  I haven't been going to church. I have not had quite time in I can't even remember when. I feel like my life at times is strictly Sleep. Eat. Play. Laundry. Doctor. Sleep. Eat. Play. Laundry. Doctor. Sleep.  I am not on here writing to make anyone feel sorry for me. This is for me. I need to face this and then also know that others have been through this before! I know this will pass and that God is with me but there have been times I have questioned. I know this is wrong of me but I guess you get in such a "spot" at times its all you can focus on. I am ready to laugh. I am ready to not worry about the mountain of doctor bills. I am ready to have energy. I am ready to wake up early to spend time with my Savior. I am ready to be the mom and wife my family deserves!!
As  I am sitting here, I am also mad at myself for feeling like this. I am beyond blessed. I mean come on, I have an amazing husband, and two gorgeous healthy babies. We are financially able for me to stay home..Yes a job for me would be super but not in the cards right now. I have been telling myself over and over that I should be in a wonderful spot right now. I should be loving every second of every day..I have no reasons to put the world before God or to be living this "worldly" life I have been living.
This morning when I got the boys settled with breakfast and a cartoon, I decided I would sit down with the bible and see what God could show me. My bible was already open to Ephesians 4-5 and verses immediately started coming at me. Verses that made me start crying because I know God was giving them to me, crying because I know I have not been living the life he would be proud of- quick to anger, putting the world first, jealousy, bitterness.....Trust me this is not easy for me to admit! I want to be perfect but I am human!!
Well there is my confession. I already feel better. I hope that you will not think any less of me or think that I have lost my mind!
Hope everyone has a blessed day!
Lots of love..

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Drive Me Crazy!!

You Drive Me Crazy.....If you are a child of the 90's then you will immediately have this song in your head! If you are not then it is a Britney Spears song that was very popular in 1999 (I had to look that up!) Well I wasn't intending on writing about a Britney Spears song today but when I was thinking about things that drive me crazy the song popped in my head, so I went with it!  Yes, my post today is about things that drive me crazy! Things that get under my skin! I am not trying to be super negative..I think I just need to vent! Not sure but here goes...
Things that drive me crazy....

* I have 3 bottles of conditioner in my shower, but 1/2 a bottle of shampoo...Why can't I run out of conditioner the same time as shampoo!!!!

*When we go to a drive-thru.Place our order, and get half way down the road then look in the bag and its WRONG!!! You would think I would learn to look in the bag while we are at the window!

* The last several times Matthew and I have been in the middle of a movie, it messes up!! This drives me insane!! Really?? Always right when the movie is getting good...I need to know who killed who???

* Kids/Adults who have no manners and expect everything...no explanation needed!

*One word...Mosquitos..

*When I get home from the grocery store and I forgot the one thing I went for! How does this happen?

*When people won't answer the phone but then when you see them they are glued to the phone!!

*Toothpaste stuck all in the sink....gross..boys in my house please learn to wipe the sink out when you get done!

*When I forget that I had a load of laundry in the washing machine...open it up the next day and it stinks so bad!! Time to rewash....ggggrrrrrr!!

* When I have nothing that matches in my kitchen...... jelly no peanut butter, ham no burger, kool-aid no sugar (does anyone know what movie this is from??) I hate when I am planning on a meal and don't' have everything! thank you deep freeze that stays stocked with emergency lasagna and pizza!

Well that's everything that has been getting under my skin lately!!
Anything driving you crazy?
Hope everyone has a blessed night!
Lots of love..

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Marriage!

I really wish I could start this out by saying that we have the perfect marriage! but I would be lying if I did! Are you completely shocked that we aren't perfect? just kidding! Today has been what I like to call an "off" day with our marriage or maybe the last few days! Do you ever have "off" days and if you don't please get in touch with me because I need to know what you are doing!
I remember growing up watching all the love movies thinking that when I got married prince charming would come and sweep me off of my feet and every day would be a bed of roses!! Well prince charming did sweep me off of my feet but I can for sure say every day has not been a bed of roses! I am so glad that my parents had a "normal" marriage! Growing up I got to see what normal couples go through! They love each other through good, bad, thick and thin....Mom and dad never yelled or threw down in front of me but I knew when things were not the best! I am glad that they did this and did not try to pretend everything was perfect for me. I think this helped show that real life marriage is not perfect all the time!
so anyways life goes on and we are married! With 6 years of marriage behind us, we have been through some stuff! It cracks me up how when you marry someone,things change. You find out things about that person you never knew before! The true person comes out (really you leave your clothes laying out everywhere?? you leave the bathroom sink in a horrible mess when you get done shaving?? )This has been one thing I have enjoyed is learning everything about Matthew and the person he truly is! We are for sure two different people that came from two totally different families! He is so laid back. I am not. He doesn't care about certain things. I do. I love to read. He hates it. I love to cook. He could care less. I do the discipline. He doesn't. We are both very hard headed and stubborn. We were both spoiled growing up so we both want our way! This has been our challenge and something God has been teaching us!!
I guess where I am going with all this is to say that we don't have the perfect marriage. There are days (like today) where its best if we don't talk much, but even on these days I love him so much! As I sit here and type this I can't help but fall in love all over! I love so many wonderful things about him, and what we have together! I thank God for our marriage everyday- the good and the bad!

Monday, July 21, 2014

Willpower!

I am going to start by openly admitting that I have no willpower! (Isn't that the first step-admitting you have a problem!) I know you are thinking what in the world is she talking about!?? Well...lets just say that I finished a Nachos Bellgrande and part of a bean and cheese burrito...thank you Taco Bell! Before I continue I know all of you clean eaters and health food people are cringing right now! You can not believe that I am openly admitting to this! but I am not ashamed!  I LOVE FOOD!!!! I am the worst person ever to say that I am going to start eating healthy and then boom I walk through a store or drive through town and I swear the food is calling my name! I love to eat food that is not good for me..I love to eat sweets..I love food that is good for me..I love fast food..I love sit down food....(I'm serious..I know I have a problem! I read cookbooks like books....I know this can't be normal!) I can't believe I am going to tell you this but last night I was looking at the menus for a trip we have booked in September????
ok back to this problem I have....I really want to be a good eater and I would say that 85% of the time I do eat good foods and take care of my body but then that other part of the time I am not sure what happens to me! There is no willpower what so ever! It just completely vanishes and I have no control over myself! I will not even tell you what I ate while I was in St. Louis dealing with Hudson! It was totally out of control and at times embarrassing! Oh well..we all handle situations differently! I do pray that God will help me with this and that one day I will wake up and openly crave fruits and veggies and have no desire for "bad" foods but until then I will enjoy it in moderation because who's to say that Jesus won't come and take us home tonight! If he does then I know that I was happy and didn't feel guilty over my late night indulgent of Taco Bell..
I hope after all of that you will either be able to relate to me or you will not relate at all and not think I am totally lost it!
I have to end by asking ....are you a stress eater? , do you just enjoy food?, do you not care about food?, do you eat healthy?, or all over the above!
Hope everyone has a blessed night!
Lots of love..