Monday, July 21, 2014

Willpower!

I am going to start by openly admitting that I have no willpower! (Isn't that the first step-admitting you have a problem!) I know you are thinking what in the world is she talking about!?? Well...lets just say that I finished a Nachos Bellgrande and part of a bean and cheese burrito...thank you Taco Bell! Before I continue I know all of you clean eaters and health food people are cringing right now! You can not believe that I am openly admitting to this! but I am not ashamed!  I LOVE FOOD!!!! I am the worst person ever to say that I am going to start eating healthy and then boom I walk through a store or drive through town and I swear the food is calling my name! I love to eat food that is not good for me..I love to eat sweets..I love food that is good for me..I love fast food..I love sit down food....(I'm serious..I know I have a problem! I read cookbooks like books....I know this can't be normal!) I can't believe I am going to tell you this but last night I was looking at the menus for a trip we have booked in September????
ok back to this problem I have....I really want to be a good eater and I would say that 85% of the time I do eat good foods and take care of my body but then that other part of the time I am not sure what happens to me! There is no willpower what so ever! It just completely vanishes and I have no control over myself! I will not even tell you what I ate while I was in St. Louis dealing with Hudson! It was totally out of control and at times embarrassing! Oh well..we all handle situations differently! I do pray that God will help me with this and that one day I will wake up and openly crave fruits and veggies and have no desire for "bad" foods but until then I will enjoy it in moderation because who's to say that Jesus won't come and take us home tonight! If he does then I know that I was happy and didn't feel guilty over my late night indulgent of Taco Bell..
I hope after all of that you will either be able to relate to me or you will not relate at all and not think I am totally lost it!
I have to end by asking ....are you a stress eater? , do you just enjoy food?, do you not care about food?, do you eat healthy?, or all over the above!
Hope everyone has a blessed night!
Lots of love..

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Lazy Day!

I love a good lazy day! and let me tell you, today has been lazy! This weekend was the swim finals in Cape Girardeau, MO. We left on Friday afternoon to spend the night because we had to be at the swimming pool at 7:15 Saturday morning. The alarm went off at 5:15am, and immediately in my head I was thinking, what in the world were we thinking?? It ended up being a wonderful day and the overall experience of the "first year" of swimming was awesome!! I am so glad that Jagger is a part of Kennett Swim Team! I know this is something that will stay with him forever! I can't wait to see what the future holds for him! So anyways, we finally got home from Cape last night around 9:40! We were all beyond exhausted! Matthew put Jagger in bed, I put Hudson in his bed and I barely made it to the bed! It was one of those nights I was too tired to take off the makeup- don't judge you know you have done it! I just fell down on the covers and was done!
This morning the boys and I slept in. We have missed the last few weeks of church. It makes me feel horrible, but we have all been sick or we have been gone. As much as I love summer, I am ready to get in a routine! I like having the structure of the school year, it makes me feel more calm and in control (type A personality, I can't help it!)
As you can probably tell, my blogging has been pushed to the backburner lately! I just feel like I haven't been able to write like I was. I don't know if my mind is on other things or what? but it is driving me nuts! So I have found a huge list of questions and on the days things are not coming out like I want them to I am going to answer a question for you! They are going to be just random and cover a variety of subjects! I think will be fun because it will probably tell you things about me you never knew!!!! :)
Here is the question for tonight:
Why did you start blogging?
I started blogging because I needed an "outlet"! I was going through a really hard time. I call this the time when the "dark monster" took over my life! I had stepped into the world of depression and had no clue! Part of me thinks I knew but then part of me thinks that I was in denial and in my mind was thinking "I can't be depressed", "I am a Christian, I can't get depressed"..WRONG!! It happens and now I am not ashamed to face it! Matthew and I had been married 1 year, we had a new baby, I was living in a new town where I did not know anyone (I was still the new girl in town and really had no friends), I was a stay at home mom who was use to having a job since I was 13, and my grandpa had passed away! I truly felt like I was going to scream. I felt like I had no purpose and I had no one to turn to! That's when More Sweet Tea was born! I have always kept a journal so I knew this would be similar but I felt more like I was talking to the people that are reading...YOU!! A few weeks into blogging and I started feeling better! I felt like I was getting things out that had been bottled up! I felt like I had a purpose and most importantly something I enjoyed!! I think of it as free therapy!

Well time to get some things done around the house!!
Hope everyone has a blessed night!
Lots of love..

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

What's Up Wednesday!! - Catch up!

Wow! I haven't wrote in awhile and we have had a lot going on. So here's what's up....

* Matthew and I celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary 2 weeks ago. He planned a weekend for us in Memphis and it was amazing!! It was one of the best weekends we have had in a LONG time...We stayed in Harbor Town...If you haven't heard of it, you should look it up! It was the neatest place! We can't wait to go back!

Me before our "date"!! I was going to do something cute with my hair but it was a TOTAL monsoon outside so I figured there was no point!

We were like two kids when we saw Chipotle in the mall!!! YES...score for lunch!




 
* 4th of July - such an awesome weekend! My family came in from Georgia and I was oh so happy to see them! When I say my family- I am referring to my cousin and her two daughters!  I love them too pieces. I just wish I could be around them more! When we had to say our goodbyes on Sunday, Jagger and I cried for a good 15 minutes!! So happy to spend time with them but sad to see them go!










* Wal-Mart, when did you start getting cute stuff??? I have been so excited about the last few things I have found!! Keep it up Wally World!
 

ok ...so I am trying to decide what to do about these.. I am really wanting a pair of Birkenstocks but good grief $130???? I was walking to the bathroom and I spotted these!!!! $14.97....What tha hey...they are worth trying!

$9....yes I will take it!

I LOVE this maxi dress!!!!! clearance $10
gold tassel necklace- $5!!!!! Wooohooo!!!
Again...Wal-Mart you have made me proud!

*In the mailbox yesterday.......
I can't believe it already time to start thinking about school!! Wonder which one Jagger will pick? I know which one I want him to pick!! hhhmmmmmm.....
 
*books, books, books!! I love books and I love to read!! I am getting overwhelmed by all the books I want to read!
 
Hope everyone is having a blessed Wednesday!
Lots of love!!
 

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Throwback Thursday- First Time at Beach!


It's time for Throwback Thursday!! I am linking up with The Mom Creative for this series! I enjoy getting to see all the Throwbacks!


My Throwback this week is my first trip to the beach ever!! I called mom today to ask her what year it was that we went. We are thinking around 6th grade so I'm guessing 14 years ago! Wow...My Nana lived in Tampa so my mom and I went with her!
We drove from Arkansas to Florida and I don't remember a lot about the trip. I do remember getting to Atlanta and thinking it was the coolest place ever! I really think it was the first time I had ever been anywhere out of the state...When I saw Hard Rock CafĂ© in downtown Atlanta, I was beyond excited! I took so many pictures of buildings! hahahah...I lived a sheltered life..we didn't go many places so when I did, it didn't take much to get me excited!
I am not sure where we spent the night but the next day we finished the drive. I also remember that was the year the wildfires were so bad. The smoke we drove through was horrible!  We finally got there and went straight to the beach! It was amazing! I had never seen the beach or ocean before!
Back to the pictures...I can not stop cracking up looking at them!! The first picture is my mom, me and nana!   Yes, I am wearing a t-shirt with cats all over it!!!!!! and I am wearing a Friends hat with a camera around my neck- a true tourist! My hair at the time was like a box! It was so frizzy and BIG! I am glad I was wearing a hat...I ask mom why in the world did she let me out of the house like that and she said we didn't have flat irons! Poor me!
The second picture is when we first got on the beach! I guess Nana had the camera and was taking pictures of us! If I can tell I am pretty sure that shirt says Daddy's girl! bahahahahah.....I love Throwback pictures!
I do know we had a great trip and I am so glad we have that memory with my Nana! I fell in love with the beach then and its still my favorite place to go!!

Hope everyone has a blessed day!
Lots of love..

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

What's Up Wednesday!

Here's whats up in our world.....

* We are finally almost finished with ball! We start tournaments tomorrow and go from there! I am beyond proud of our little team! The boys have come a long way and have shown lots of improvement! Are we the best team? No...but our boys are having a blast! Sounds like a win to me!! ;)

* Hudson is taking several steps and getting more confident about walking!! I think in a few weeks we will officially have a toddler!!

*Everyone has been talking about the book The Fault In Our Stars..I have not been interested because I am not mentally stable enough to handle books/movies like this...I have learned to not even put myself through it because I end up "ugly" crying at random times just thinking about the movie or book. I will go into a binge eating and its just all together not good! BUT everyone keeps talking about this book so I decided what tha hey, I will give it a try....Kindle has it for 4.99..If I begin reading it and start slipping into depression I will stop! ;)

*I went into Wal-Mart tonight for bread and came out with $75 worth of stuff! Please tell me how this happens??

*I am going on a week of exercising and I am determined to start feeling good again!!

* I am sick of medical bills (sigh)  they are never ending..I told Matthew today that maybe I should sell a kidney!

Hope everyone had a blessed Wednesday!!
Lots of love...

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Whats Up Wednesday!!

Here is what's up in our world......

*The sun is FINALLY shining here! I can't believe it!

* We were suppose to have ball games every night this week but Monday and Tuesday got rained out so tonight means- PLAY BALL!

* After having sweet Lucy for almost 7 years, I had to make a very hard decision to find her a new home! It was so hard for me but I know it was the best decision. I prayed and prayed and God gave us a wonderful new home for her! I am beyond excited about it! She has a sweet little girl who will love on her 24/7! I just could not give her the lovin she needed and I felt so overwhelmed with the boys and her!  I will always love my sweet Lucy but I know in my heart we made a great decision!

*Don't come to my house right now because I will probably try to sell you something! ;)

*I started exercising again and I am feeling great! Before I had Hudson, I was in the best shape I had been in year! I am just ready to feel good again! The Daniel Plan is very hard here in Kennett! There are many things that we can not get..we would have to make multiple trips to Memphis and I just can't do that! so ...I have decided to fit it to my life! Follow the recipes when I can and when I can't that is ok too!

* Mr. Hudson is starting to develop a major attitude!!! When he doesn't get his way, he will either scream, fall on the floor or try to hit! I can't and wont' have this! but here is the biggie..When Jagger was younger and I was having to discipline, I could just say No and he would instantly stop and get his feelings hurt! Hudson, its a whole new ballgame! When I say No, he smiles and does it anyway! He is going to give us a run for our money! and with him he is almost two but I am looking at a tiny baby! I am not suppose to be getting on to a two year old in the body of a "infant"! Hope this makes sense....bottom line is that he knows what no means and I have to get it under control before its not "cute" anymore!

*I have started watching Revenge again from the beginning! Gosh I love this show!

Hope everyone has a blessed day!
Lots of love..

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Sold!

What is it about selling stuff that gives you a rush of energy?? or is that just me! ;) Every couple of months or weeks I get in a selling and giving away mood! Matthew always kids that I will be selling him next! I just can't contain myself! I hate clutter and junk..it drives me mad! now that being said, I do keep the important things and the stuff that has meaning, so Matthew can feel safe for now! I normally have an "on going" pile for Helping Hands and the consignment store, but today I started looking at the piles and thought I would throw some of it on Facebook to see what happened! Boom...stuffed started selling! It made me super happy, so I started walking around the house looking for other things to sell! I really hope that I am not sounding weird! Its not that we are desperate for money but I am excited to get the stuff moving and I don't have to wait around for a consignment appointment!
In other news, I am back in reading mode! I have always been a "reader". Reader meaning I can typically finish a book in a day or two. I get obsessed with books! There have been times I am so glued to a book that I end up in the bathroom floor with the door locked and the vent on..when the boys come knocking on the door 15 minutes later my reply is, "I'm ok, my stomach hurts alittle"! Yes, I am making a huge confession here but I am almost positive that Matthew knows when I say this it ultimately means leave me alone for a few more minutes this book is awesome! Ok so that is an extreme situation and doesn't happen often but I will get glued on a book and won't stop. I have to force myself to lay the book down to take care of my family! ;) Summer makes me happy because that is when my friends start reading books and we can discuss them! I hate when I try to talk to Matthew about a book and he just stares at me with a blank look..I need someone who has or is reading the book to recap all the drama that goes on! There are a couple of summer reading lists floating on Facebook. I took a look and will for sure be checking into some of the books! Right now I am reading Divergent (teenybopper fast read!), The Scarlet Thread(Christian), and a Christian marriage book!
All this talk about reading has got me ready to read especially since all my boys are counting sheep or as we say in our house counting ducks!
Hope everyone has a blessed night
Lots of love!